psychological condition: Depressed and stressed
audio anti-depressant: In the silence of sadness

Oh...well...I just screwed my oral for esl just now. Not pretty, stuttered at the begining. I panicked, yea. Sighs, was never a good speaker, although I do tend to talk big off and on. Well...I managed to continue on, but I figured that I've already gave a bad impression at the start. I don't think the lecturer's lenient on this. Bad...screwed my internal.

Heh, now...to think about it, I had it so easy when I was back in Taman SEA, my old school that is. To be frank, I initially thought that it would be a breeze, and how wrong I was. The stress seems to get heavier and heavier each day. Nearly coming the feeling of no interest.

Physics on Thursday, Math studies on next Monday. Driving this weekend too, esl draft have to be done by this week for reviewing. Driving...my instructer is trying to push me as well...I was rather stressed out while driving in KL then. The unfamiliar parts of KL and all. Well...at least my chemistry project hell is over, can relax about it. My topic...well...is pretty much an open ended topic compared to the others. Right or wrong, the approach I took, I don't think I care anymore. Mr Lee's a much lenient fellow compared to Ms Ting, though I have a slight feeling that he doesn't like me.

Oh yes...chem practical...it's part of the esterification thingy, the liquid turned slightly black while heating it...well...least it's not JUST my group. Contaminants in the conical flask, oo~oh boy. Tomorrow's the distillation part...hopefully something will go right there.

Lately, I'm too quite under a number of emotional stress, well...always feeling left behind or something. Comes to the part where I get easily annoyed as well...temper changes often and all. Then there's the emotional stress of...well...go figure yourself...

Well...least I'm over with oral, but it still bugged me that I've done badly...A bruise to my pride and all....bleh...

My favourite blue blouse lost its elasticness...crap again...DAMNIT!!

Well...that's all for today...about what is going on in my life. Sighs...this comp sucks...it can't seem to play the mp3 files from my thumb drive...or maybe I need a ear phone for it...(they kinda want the lab to be freakingly quiet, which is well...good). Hm...anyway, maybe I should try using the other computer lab for a change, it's much quieter there(less people), though I MIGHT get kicked out by the IT people when they want to use it.

Random rantage....

psychological condition:INSANE!!!! (when am I ever not?)
audio anti-depressant:Randomness.... yes, I have my music library on shuffle so it really is randomness...



Ok, I haven't blogged for AGES, so I will try to make this LONG! It also helps that I am bored, and so this is the only thing curing my boredom (sad, isn't it....) Well, at least I'm awake, which I can't say for my dear little Apollo who is asleep by my chair curled up in a little ball (with his head on his tail..... BALL OF DOG!)

(oh great, writer's block already? .... and I call myself a writer.....)

Ok, must pick topic...... MONTY PYTHON!!!!!!! The BRILLIANCE! THE INSANITY! Yes, I have rediscovered the madness of Monty Python and finally seen the last half of Monty Python and the Holy Grail. Brilliantly insane! My favourite quote remains "Are you suggesting coconuts migrate?" although "I fart in your general direction! Your mother was a hamster and your father smellt of elderberries!" is good too. A Monty Python Invasion is going to take place at Lucy's sometime next week, and we will watch Monty Python, and more Monty Python, and MORE Monty Python....... THE FUNFUN!!!!!

LUMBERJACK SONG! IN GERMAN! Fitting that we sometimes call our German teacher a lumberjack with the amount of handouts she gives us..... and then she comes to class with 5 copies of Monty Python in German! Best $2 I ever spent, I reckon! Evil German SAC! We had a listening SAC and I swear I'm going deaf in one ear and the other one isn't that great either (it's not so much that I can't hear, but noise rings a bit and is almost amplified but made unintelligible....... sometimes) Stupid ears! Stupid listening and speaking.... why can't we just read and write like we do in latin...... (except in Latin we don't write in Latin either, only translate :P) Yes, that would make German a lot easier..... no oral exam, no listening tests, no speaking....... only then we wouldn't really be learning German because anyone with half a brain is able to look up random words in the dictionary and translate something from english to german....... none of the insane Latin word order (or lack thereof...)

Well, I hope everyone who did the German SAC did well..... *sends luck from the seal* (Never mind that it's a bit late to change anything now.... but maybe the luck will put our teacher in a good mood and make her more generous than she might otherwise have been.... though, as teachers go, she's not the hardest marker in the world, so I don't think that will be too much of a problem..... the problem will be more that we were taught so little german last year and the year before and the year before......) I want to learn the subjunctive!!!! (what is my obsession with the subjunctive????) But I suppose the only problem with teaching me the subjunctive would be that I would put the subjunctive EVERYWHERE and nothing would ever be written in indicative again. Yes, it would be a problem if I were to do that. However, I still want to learn it, and if we don't learn it in the next few lessons, I WILL TEACH MYSELF!!!! (oh the funfun.....) (and then if I were to teach myself incorrectly, then I would FAIL because I would go insane and put incorrect subjunctive everywhere...... not a good idea)

Ok, enough talk about school....... HOLIDAYS HAVE BEGUN AND I MUST NOW SHUT UP ABOUT SCHOOL!!!!!!! (Oi, why are you telling your own self off about talking about school? It wasn't ME who wrote all that!) (Oh? And who was it then? It wasn't ME) ('Twas me....) (WHO'S THAT????) (Oh great, don't tell us we now have THREE personalities!) (Sounds like it, doesn't it.....) (Oh get out! There's barely room for 2 of us in here!) (I was here first! I'M STAYING!) (Yeah, me too) *Kicks out 3rd voice* (Oww! That hurt! You're hurting your own self!) *silence* (FINE! Be that way! Ignore me all you like...... I'll get my revenge.....) *3rd voice runs away*

(Yay! Now there's peace in this head of mine.....) (PEACE?! Are you INSANE???? How can there be peace after an invasion like that?!) (Oh quiet down! Hey..... what's that?)

*3rd voice blows up the other 2 voices*

(Oh no..... I just killed my brain!)

*Shelfnut lies braindead and unconscious*