psychological condition: Depressed and stressed
audio anti-depressant: In the silence of sadness

Oh...well...I just screwed my oral for esl just now. Not pretty, stuttered at the begining. I panicked, yea. Sighs, was never a good speaker, although I do tend to talk big off and on. Well...I managed to continue on, but I figured that I've already gave a bad impression at the start. I don't think the lecturer's lenient on this. Bad...screwed my internal.

Heh, now...to think about it, I had it so easy when I was back in Taman SEA, my old school that is. To be frank, I initially thought that it would be a breeze, and how wrong I was. The stress seems to get heavier and heavier each day. Nearly coming the feeling of no interest.

Physics on Thursday, Math studies on next Monday. Driving this weekend too, esl draft have to be done by this week for reviewing. Driving...my instructer is trying to push me as well...I was rather stressed out while driving in KL then. The unfamiliar parts of KL and all. Well...at least my chemistry project hell is over, can relax about it. My topic...well...is pretty much an open ended topic compared to the others. Right or wrong, the approach I took, I don't think I care anymore. Mr Lee's a much lenient fellow compared to Ms Ting, though I have a slight feeling that he doesn't like me.

Oh yes...chem practical...it's part of the esterification thingy, the liquid turned slightly black while heating it...well...least it's not JUST my group. Contaminants in the conical flask, oo~oh boy. Tomorrow's the distillation part...hopefully something will go right there.

Lately, I'm too quite under a number of emotional stress, well...always feeling left behind or something. Comes to the part where I get easily annoyed as well...temper changes often and all. Then there's the emotional stress of...well...go figure yourself...

Well...least I'm over with oral, but it still bugged me that I've done badly...A bruise to my pride and all....bleh...

My favourite blue blouse lost its elasticness...crap again...DAMNIT!!

Well...that's all for today...about what is going on in my life. Sighs...this comp sucks...it can't seem to play the mp3 files from my thumb drive...or maybe I need a ear phone for it...(they kinda want the lab to be freakingly quiet, which is well...good). Hm...anyway, maybe I should try using the other computer lab for a change, it's much quieter there(less people), though I MIGHT get kicked out by the IT people when they want to use it.