psychological condition: Depressed and stressed
audio anti-depressant: In the silence of sadness

Oh...well...I just screwed my oral for esl just now. Not pretty, stuttered at the begining. I panicked, yea. Sighs, was never a good speaker, although I do tend to talk big off and on. Well...I managed to continue on, but I figured that I've already gave a bad impression at the start. I don't think the lecturer's lenient on this. Bad...screwed my internal.

Heh, now...to think about it, I had it so easy when I was back in Taman SEA, my old school that is. To be frank, I initially thought that it would be a breeze, and how wrong I was. The stress seems to get heavier and heavier each day. Nearly coming the feeling of no interest.

Physics on Thursday, Math studies on next Monday. Driving this weekend too, esl draft have to be done by this week for reviewing. Driving...my instructer is trying to push me as well...I was rather stressed out while driving in KL then. The unfamiliar parts of KL and all. Well...at least my chemistry project hell is over, can relax about it. My topic...well...is pretty much an open ended topic compared to the others. Right or wrong, the approach I took, I don't think I care anymore. Mr Lee's a much lenient fellow compared to Ms Ting, though I have a slight feeling that he doesn't like me.

Oh yes...chem practical...it's part of the esterification thingy, the liquid turned slightly black while heating it...well...least it's not JUST my group. Contaminants in the conical flask, oo~oh boy. Tomorrow's the distillation part...hopefully something will go right there.

Lately, I'm too quite under a number of emotional stress, well...always feeling left behind or something. Comes to the part where I get easily annoyed as well...temper changes often and all. Then there's the emotional stress of...well...go figure yourself...

Well...least I'm over with oral, but it still bugged me that I've done badly...A bruise to my pride and all....bleh...

My favourite blue blouse lost its elasticness...crap again...DAMNIT!!

Well...that's all for today...about what is going on in my life. Sighs...this comp sucks...it can't seem to play the mp3 files from my thumb drive...or maybe I need a ear phone for it...(they kinda want the lab to be freakingly quiet, which is well...good). Hm...anyway, maybe I should try using the other computer lab for a change, it's much quieter there(less people), though I MIGHT get kicked out by the IT people when they want to use it.

Random rantage....

psychological condition:INSANE!!!! (when am I ever not?)
audio anti-depressant:Randomness.... yes, I have my music library on shuffle so it really is randomness...



Ok, I haven't blogged for AGES, so I will try to make this LONG! It also helps that I am bored, and so this is the only thing curing my boredom (sad, isn't it....) Well, at least I'm awake, which I can't say for my dear little Apollo who is asleep by my chair curled up in a little ball (with his head on his tail..... BALL OF DOG!)

(oh great, writer's block already? .... and I call myself a writer.....)

Ok, must pick topic...... MONTY PYTHON!!!!!!! The BRILLIANCE! THE INSANITY! Yes, I have rediscovered the madness of Monty Python and finally seen the last half of Monty Python and the Holy Grail. Brilliantly insane! My favourite quote remains "Are you suggesting coconuts migrate?" although "I fart in your general direction! Your mother was a hamster and your father smellt of elderberries!" is good too. A Monty Python Invasion is going to take place at Lucy's sometime next week, and we will watch Monty Python, and more Monty Python, and MORE Monty Python....... THE FUNFUN!!!!!

LUMBERJACK SONG! IN GERMAN! Fitting that we sometimes call our German teacher a lumberjack with the amount of handouts she gives us..... and then she comes to class with 5 copies of Monty Python in German! Best $2 I ever spent, I reckon! Evil German SAC! We had a listening SAC and I swear I'm going deaf in one ear and the other one isn't that great either (it's not so much that I can't hear, but noise rings a bit and is almost amplified but made unintelligible....... sometimes) Stupid ears! Stupid listening and speaking.... why can't we just read and write like we do in latin...... (except in Latin we don't write in Latin either, only translate :P) Yes, that would make German a lot easier..... no oral exam, no listening tests, no speaking....... only then we wouldn't really be learning German because anyone with half a brain is able to look up random words in the dictionary and translate something from english to german....... none of the insane Latin word order (or lack thereof...)

Well, I hope everyone who did the German SAC did well..... *sends luck from the seal* (Never mind that it's a bit late to change anything now.... but maybe the luck will put our teacher in a good mood and make her more generous than she might otherwise have been.... though, as teachers go, she's not the hardest marker in the world, so I don't think that will be too much of a problem..... the problem will be more that we were taught so little german last year and the year before and the year before......) I want to learn the subjunctive!!!! (what is my obsession with the subjunctive????) But I suppose the only problem with teaching me the subjunctive would be that I would put the subjunctive EVERYWHERE and nothing would ever be written in indicative again. Yes, it would be a problem if I were to do that. However, I still want to learn it, and if we don't learn it in the next few lessons, I WILL TEACH MYSELF!!!! (oh the funfun.....) (and then if I were to teach myself incorrectly, then I would FAIL because I would go insane and put incorrect subjunctive everywhere...... not a good idea)

Ok, enough talk about school....... HOLIDAYS HAVE BEGUN AND I MUST NOW SHUT UP ABOUT SCHOOL!!!!!!! (Oi, why are you telling your own self off about talking about school? It wasn't ME who wrote all that!) (Oh? And who was it then? It wasn't ME) ('Twas me....) (WHO'S THAT????) (Oh great, don't tell us we now have THREE personalities!) (Sounds like it, doesn't it.....) (Oh get out! There's barely room for 2 of us in here!) (I was here first! I'M STAYING!) (Yeah, me too) *Kicks out 3rd voice* (Oww! That hurt! You're hurting your own self!) *silence* (FINE! Be that way! Ignore me all you like...... I'll get my revenge.....) *3rd voice runs away*

(Yay! Now there's peace in this head of mine.....) (PEACE?! Are you INSANE???? How can there be peace after an invasion like that?!) (Oh quiet down! Hey..... what's that?)

*3rd voice blows up the other 2 voices*

(Oh no..... I just killed my brain!)

*Shelfnut lies braindead and unconscious*

The silence...

psychological condition:In the Taylor's College Computer Lab
audio anti-depressant: Tappings from keyboard, people making weird noises and so on

It's been pretty quiet around here...Hey people! Come on and make a post already! Hm...maybe when I'm free(well, one of these days), I might decide to drop by again and change the template of the blog page...kinda dark around here ain't it? :P Anyway...yeah.

Draco, you take care of yourself alright? ^_^

Hm...the college cafeteria ain't so bad really, and like my old school...cats running about. Well, it's nice having cats running about the area, makes it very...friendly like. Actually, I saw only one cat at that particular moment, but I've seen other cats around. I remember that I saw one that looks pregnant....so go figure.

Usually at this hour, I'd be having lunch with my friends, but today, I have to finish up some physics stuff, which requires internet access to get more info. Hm...lately, I haven't been going out with that group for lunch, mainly because I have other stuff to do at hand...What a pity. Anyway...

Post people! I mean like...you had the whole Wednesday off and all...:P and with all your free periods, nyahaahhahahaaaa!!! Like...it doesn't take tooooo much of your time. I even had this post done within an hour ya hear! That and I'm multitasking with physics project!(actually, I'm already done with whatever draft work needed(that I THINK is relevant to my project).

Anyway, my class is gonna start in 15 minutes or less, so later people!

MUAHAHAAHA!!!

psychological condition:
audio anti-depressant:

Am posting from the collage computer lab! PHEAR!!!! MUAHAHAHAHAAAAA!!!!

Mreh...

psychological condition: Slightly hostile...
audio anti-depressant: Exodus 04

Man...this is the first time...I've posted here...in ages...

And since I'm a little pissed at a certain guy in school...(Rine, I think you might know the story, you know...the whole 'jealousy' thing?), so, I shall take my wrath onto the Americans(some)! and some humans too while I'm at it.

Sighs...I think Americans innocently think that they are under threat(when they are actually the threat). And with the kinds of newschannel...You can't really trust CNN's report sometimes. Small issue being made a big deal, and big issue...being made an even bigger deal.

Now we come to abortion and homosexuality. Yes, people(once again) make a super big deal about how we should not take a life, and how we have no right to make judgement for another life. But what about the life that is....or should I say, will be corrupted? Comeon...I'm sure you've heard news about college/Uni students getting pregnant and from there, abandoned their baby right? Well...put it this way, chances is high that the college/Uni student is unequiped for motherhood, and seeing that how hard for couples to adopt(the people wanting to see if they are fit yaddayadda), might as well..well..put it down than to let it suffer? Besides...humans will overpopulate the world, and we probably end up using bio weapons to kill each other for land, food and so on...

Homosexuality seems to...ALWAYS get a book thrown at them. I mean seriously. Those people often refer to the Bible and say that it is a sin. The sad part about the whole thing is that they forgot about the love part of it. If they really want to take the whole Bible seriously...

If they really want to take the whole thing seriously, I will seriously need a safety helmet...

Man...this few people are really giving Christians bad rep, and even a harder work to prove that they are making distorted versions of it...this is why I never like overly-religious-y people. They go over the extreme and make a whole new story out of it...in act, in any religion, going extreme about it will always result in distorted truth.

I'm not really good at debating...you can find a hell lot of good debators in Deviantart, politic section, of course, you'll find the stupid ones that cannot live without fuck.

Where did my sanity go? IT ABANDONED ME!!!!

psychological condition: Hmmm.... insane (as usual).... and crazy (that's nothing new) and talking to myself.... (and the only difference there is that usually I talk to myself.... but this time I'm talking to myself ON MSN).... yes.... INSANE!!!
audio anti-depressant: Some random music that I can't remember the name of....

Insanity.... there is nothing like the feeling of TALKING TO ONE'S SELF to send you insane. INSANE!!!! (The sad thing is, I started freaking my own self out.... I was supposed to be using my other email address to freak OTHER people out....)

Yes.... Overlord may have thought she was insane, but that's nothing compared to the insanity of the Shelfnut.

Here's a conversation which poor Overlord was part of..... yes, poor Overlord was a witness to this insanity. (Oh... and both Tinúviel and Berio i Hidh are me :P) (Ignore the times, I just couldn't be bothered deleting them all)

[10:59:18 PM] Ríne: how fun:P
[10:59:34 PM] Tinúviel: indeed
[10:59:40 PM] Ríne: yeah:P
[10:59:58 PM] (F)Berio i H: woah... this is confusing me... that wasn't the idea!!!!!
[11:00:05 PM] Ríne: heh:P
[11:00:07 PM] Ríne: wasn't it?:P
[11:00:26 PM] (F)Berio i H: i think this is the confusing thing:
[11:00:27 PM] (F)Berio i H: Tinúviel says: hello!
Berio i Hídh - I have a dead TV..... DEAD, I tell you says: hey!
[11:00:50 PM] Tinúviel: how weird, Emily.... you talk to yourself????
[11:00:52 PM] Ríne: heh
[11:00:57 PM] Ríne: indeed it is:P
[11:01:05 PM] Tinúviel: how sad
[11:01:16 PM] Ríne: extremely:P
[11:01:21 PM] (F)Berio i H: (you know... this is encouraging my insanity)
[11:01:38 PM] Ríne: (...it is indeed)
[11:01:44 PM] Ríne: (not that it needs it:P)
[11:02:50 PM] Tinúviel: no, indeed it does not
[11:02:59 PM] Ríne: uh huh
[11:03:11 PM] (F)Berio i H: (I think Tinúviel is slightly more sane that I am :P)
[11:03:19 PM] Ríne: (...............riiiight)
[11:03:21 PM] Tinúviel: am not!
[11:03:30 PM] Ríne: (okay....that just proved a lot of your insanity:P)
[11:03:50 PM] Tinúviel: I don't like this font
[11:03:56 PM] (F)Berio i H: yeah.... it's evil
[11:03:58 PM] Ríne: then change it:P
[11:04:35 PM] Tinúviel: this better?
[11:04:43 PM] Tinúviel: or this?
[11:04:47 PM] (F)Berio i H: hmm... dunno
[11:04:55 PM] Ríne: shrug
[11:05:29 PM] Tinúviel: ok... this is freaking me out...... Tinúviel is going offline now
[11:05:36 PM] Ríne: heh, kay:P
[11:05:36 PM] (F)Berio i H: noo!!!! Stay!!!!
[11:05:39 PM] Ríne: bye bye:P
[11:05:47 PM] Ríne: oh dear...why did I say bye bye?
[11:05:47 PM] Tinúviel: bye!!!!
[11:05:51 PM] Ríne: ................=/
[11:05:53 PM] (F)Berio i H: i don't know
[11:05:55 PM] Ríne: heh
[11:05:57 PM] Tinúviel has left the conversation.


You see that madness?????


Anyway.... guess what the Shelfnut has gone and done now......

STARTED MAKING CRANES AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

crane count: 138!!!!

..... so, you would have to say that the insanity of the Shelfnut is thriving well.... and has increased in insanity! Small problem..... where did my sanity go? I know I had it somewhere! I must have left it somewhere... but where oh where did my sanity go????? *wails*

(....Emily, what sanity?)

.... My SANITY!!!! I know I had it somewhere.... it ran away.... I know where it went.... it went to Middle Earth!!!! HOW DARE IT???? How dare my sanity go off to the place where I want to live and LEAVE ME HERE????? HOW COULD IT BE SO INCONSIDERATE?????????

*wails* Ai ai! Ha awarthant nin!!!!




(enough insanity for one day?.... yeah, I think so too)

Aegis is speaking!

psychological condition: Fine
audio anti-depressant:In the Land of Twilight Under the Moon

My fish Aegis wants to have a say in this blog...so...

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there, that's all he wants to say, :)